We are the music makers; we are the dreamers of dreams

I'm over it.

It's only day two and let me tell y'all...I HATE GRAD SCHOOL!!!!!! Grr. No, I hate the hours upon hours I am expected to be able to devote to this as if I have nothing else of any importance going on in my life. Yes, I'm taking a break to update LJ and check Facebook. But, I've been working for the past 2 hours dammit! I've got to be able to come up for air and food every once in a while, right? Someone please tell me I'll make it and this is all worth it and all that encouraging stuff you say when someone you know is feeling like they are drowning under the weight of everything in the world they have to do! this would probably be easier if I was staying in Oxford but that would require me to know someone who lives down there and also require me to want to stay in Oxford for 2 months. Veto! Ok, back to the books!!

Musicfest!!!

If I have strep again, so help me...It feels like I'm swallowing swords and my fever is up to 101.5. I'm achey and have chills like crazy. If anyone is in the neighborhood and feels like putting me out of my misery, I'd be happy to leave my door unlocked.

How the crap did it get to be 9:00 already?! Dang, Gina. I had school work I was supposed to do tonight. Oops!

I'm not sure how my soccer team is going to do in our games this season, but I already love those girls. They had me laughing all throughout practice this afternoon. And after the depressing meeting about Mississippi schools' budgets getting cut like crazy, I needed something to make me laugh. I realize everyone keeps saying we are in an economic crisis and all that crap, but I don't get why the MS powers that be won't do something to raise more revenue instead of just cutting money to things like schools. My district will probably be cut at least 10 million dollars next year. That means I can expect to have at least 35 kids per class next year. I have a class of 33 this year and trying to get everything done is crazy. Of course, they aren't going to lower our accountability nor will they give any grace when it comes to the damn MCT. We are just expected to be miracle workers. It's so frustrating. I absolutely love what I do and love my kids. I get excited to see them after long breaks. They are the reason I wake up every morning. It's like I am the mama of my 65 students, 24 dancers, and 24 soccer players. But crap like this takes the joy out of being a teacher. I don't want to leave this profession. I just want the legislators and Haley Barbour to realize what the hell they are doing before they do all this crap to us and to our kids.

Snow day #3 of the semester and it's not even February yet. I'm going to be in school until July at this rate!

I have been doing work for just one of the 3 online classes I'm taking this semester since I got home at 3:30! I'm not even done reading all the articles for it yet. I'm listening to an interview right now and then I get to start doing my responses. And I still have one more class to do work for tonight! Thank goodness I didn't plan on doing any work for my kids tonight. This is a bit depressing, y'all. I am 28 years old and my entire life revolves around my job. I wake up at 5:30, leave the house by 6:20, am at school until at least 3, come home, and either grade papers, make powerpoints, or do stuff for the online classes I have to take in order to renew my license to still have a job the next 5 years. Starting next week, I'll be at school until 5 or 5:30 for soccer practice. My weekends are usually spent doing school work and Sundays are for volleyball practice and getting ready for school to start again Monday. I know this is the life I have chosen for myself this semester, but it feels like a catch-22. Did I choose it to fill any voids in my life so I don't have to get out and be around people? Or am I not able to really be around people because I have so much going on in my life? It makes me sad because all I think about is stuff I can do with my kids next week or next year or whenever. I don't hang out with people. I don't go out on dates. I don't meet new people. I teach. I don't want this to be my life. I don't want to wake up in 25 years and realize I have no friends and have done nothing with my life!

No, I will NOT be your kids' replacement mom!! Thanks for asking, though.

Christmas break. Yay.

I wasn't aware that the MidSouth had a monsoon season.